Although I may not be a million dollar preacher, and I may not save the souls of many, I am thankful for the time I spent in Bible College. It was 5 years in which I thought I was going in the direction I needed to be going, at the end of which I discovered, not so much.  We are all aware of the hate and judgement that spews forth from the mouths of the sanctified ones these days. I am in no way saying all Christians are this way, just most of their more vocal mouthpieces.

One of the many reasons I am thankful for my time in the ol’ BC is it taught me to be aware, that things around us aren’t always what they seem. It taught me that there are forces that abound, some who would have us do well, and some that would defeat us at every turn. Even though, at times I look at my time as a failure because, I have not become a pastor of a church nor shephered a flock. After reading one of the guys on my blogroll, I was relieved to find that I am not the only one who believes in something.

You see I may not go to Church anymore but I am spiritual or I try to be. One of the things I learned in BC was about the spirit world and how there are things that can not be seen, can barely be explained. I do believe there is a God and to keep everything in balance I must therefore,logically, see that there is an evil presense at work as well. Along with that I also believe in his ministering spirits or angels, and their balance demons.   If you read Mark at all you will find (or you can do a search in his blog) 3 (I think) posts  that are beautifully written. Talking about the presense of angels and their visitations to man.

I am aware that this is a subject that might be a bit touchy and start off some wacky debate, but I wanted to write it anyway. The posts that Mark wrote are great posts and at least one of them had me misty. I wrote all of the above to tell you this. I, like Mark beleive that there are angels among us all the time, whether or not we can tell that they are there is another story. I believe sometimes we can.

Back when Patrick and I were going through all of his crazy medical stuff ( well we still are, just not quite as bad) . I had a very bad day. It was the day that I think I posted about having to pull over the car because I was crying so badly. I was overwhelmed with everything that was going on and not really having anyone on Maui to talk to about it. You guys were all being great but I needed something more substantial, for me. Anyway on one of my days off during that time I just had to get away, be anywhere but in my home, and I went for a drive while Patrick slept. I ended up at a small strip mall where there is a Starbuck’s. The day was a bit overcast and looked like a storm was brewing to fit my mood. As I was walking from my car, my mood must have been evident on my face. The reason I say this is that about half way through the parking lot an old man approached me. With his baggy pants, pulled up to his chest struggling to walk towards me with a cane.

As he got closer to me he smiled the most beautiful smile and said ” Son, I want you to look behind you. Look quickly so as you don’t miss it ”

When I turned around to look behind me the Sun broke free of the clouds over the mountains of West Maui and I got to partake in one of the most gorgeous double rainbows I have ever seen. Of course when I turned around to discuss it with the old man, he was gone. Just gone. Now I know you are all most likley thinking I have gone around the bend, that I really am a freak. Well, I can not explain it. He did not get into a car, there were none close to us at the point of our meeting. He did not walk away, the parking lot was small enough that I still would have seen him at the pace he was going at.

 After continuing on my way to Strabuck’s I realized I was not as down and blue as I had been before the man approached, sure my worries were still there but not as constant and niggling as they had been. I learned a few things that day.

That great beauty sometimes breaks free from darkness.

That sometimes to experience life, you have to step out of the big picture, and enjoy some of the things around you.  

And that maybe, just maybe there is something in the cosmos that is aware of our needs and tries to lend a hand when He can.

*** Just in case you wanted to check out Mark’s posts on Angels I did a search on his site. They are titled Angels parts 1 – 3. They are great posts check’ em out if you want ***

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